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new moon(暮光之城-新月英文版)-第61部分

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a blurred wandering 
through old memories—blinding bright visions of the Phoenix sun; my mother's 
face; a ramshackle tree 
house; a faded quilt; a wall of mirrors; a flame on the black water I forgot 
each of them as soon as the 
picture changed。 
The last picture was the only one that stuck in my head。 It was meaningless—
just a set on a stage。 A 
balcony at night; a painted moon hanging in the sky。 I watched the girl in her 
nightdress lean on the railing 
and talk to herself。 
Meaningless but when I slowly struggled back to consciousness; Juliet was on 
my mind。 
Jacob was still asleep; he'd slumped down to the floor and his breathing was 
deep and even。 The house 
was darker now than before; it was black outside the window。 I was stiff; but 
warm and almost dry。 The 
inside of my throat burned with every breath I took。 
I was going to have to get up—at least to get a drink。 But my body just 
wanted tc he here limp; to never 
move again。 
Instead of moving; I thought about Juliet some more。 
I wondered what she would have done if Romeo had left her; not because he was 
banished; but because 
he lost interests What if Rosalind had given him the time of day; and he'd 
changed his mind? What if; 
instead of marrying Juliet; he'd just disappeared? 
I thought I knew how Juliet would feel。 
She wouldn't go back to her old life; not really。 She wouldn't ever have moved 
on; I was sure of that。 
Even if she'd lived until she was old and gray; every time she closed her 
eyes; it would have been 
Romeo's face she saw behind her lids。 She would have accepted that; 
eventually。 
I wondered if she would have married Paris in the end; just to please her 
parents; to keep the peace。 No; 
probably not; I decided。 But then; the story didn't say much about Paris。 He 
was just a stick figure—a 
placeholder; a threat; a deadline to force her hand。 
What if there were more to Paris? 
What if Paris had been Juliet's friend? Her very best friend? What if he was 
the only one she could 
confide in about the whole devastating thing with Romeo? The one person who 
really understood her and 
made her feel halfway human again? What if he was patient and kind? What if he 
took care of her? What 
if Juliet knew she couldn't survive without him? What if he really loved her; 
and wanted her to be happy? 
And what if she loved Paris? Not like Romeo。 Nothing like that; of course。 
But enough that she 
wanted him to be happy; too? 
Jacob's slow; deep breathing was the only sound in the room—like a lullaby 
hummed to a child; like the 
whisper of a rocking chair; like the ticking of an old clock when you had 
nowhere you needed to goIt 
was the sound of fort。 
If Romeo was really gone; never ing back; would it have mattered whether or 
not Juliet had taken 
Paris up on his offer? Maybe she should have tried to settle into the leftover 
scraps of life that were left 
behind。 Maybe that would have been as close to happiness as she could get。 
I sighed; and then groaned when the sigh scraped my throat。 I was reading too 
much into the story。 
Romeo wouldn't change his mind。 That's why people still remembered his name; 
always twined with hers: 
Romeo and Juliet。 That's why it was a good story。 〃Juliet gets dumped and ends 
up with Paris〃 would 
have never been a hit。 
I closed my eyes and drifted again; letting my mind wander away from the 
stupid play I didn't want to 
think about anymore。 I thought about reality instead—about jumping off the 
cliff and what a brainless 
mistake that had been。 And not just the cliff; but the motorcycles and the 
whole irresponsible Evel 
Knievel bit。 What if something bad happened to me? What would that do to 
Charlie? Harry's heart 
attack had pushed everything suddenly into perspective for me。 Perspective 
that I didn't want to see; 
because—if I admitted to the truth of it—it would mean that I would have to 
change my ways。 Could I 
live like that? 
Maybe。 It wouldn't be easy; in fact; it would be downright miserable to give 
up my hallucinations and try 
to be a grown…up。 But maybe I should do it。 And maybe I could。 If I had Jacob。 
I couldn't make that decision right now。 It hurt too much。 I'd think about 
something else。 
Images from my ill…considered afternoon stunt rolled through my head while I 
tried to e up with 
something pleasant to think about the feel of the air as I fell; the 
blackness of the water; the thrashing of 
the current Edward's face I lingered there for a long time。 Jacob's warm 
hands; trying to beat life 
back into me the stinging rain flung down by the purple clouds the strange 
fire on the waves 
There was something familiar about that flash of color on top of the water。 Of 
course it couldn't really be 
fire— 
My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of a car squelching through the mud 
on the road outside。 I 
heard it stop in front of the house; and doors started opening and closing。 I 
thought about sitting up; and 
then decided against that idea。 
Billy's voice was easily identifiable; but he kept it uncharacteristically 
low; so that it was only a gravelly 
grumble。 
The door opened; and the light flicked on。 I blinked; momentarily blind。 Jake 
startled awake; gasping and 
jumping to his feet。 
〃Sorry;〃 Billy grunted。 〃Did we wake you?〃 
My eyes slowly focused on his face; and then; as I could read his expression; 
they filled with tears。 
〃Oh; no; Billy!〃 I moaned。 
He nodded slowly; his expression hard with grief。 Jake hurried to his father 
and took one of his hands。 
The pain made his face suddenly childlike—it looked odd on top of the man's 
body。 
Sam was right behind Billy; pushing his chair through the door。 His normal 
posure was absent from 
his agonized face。 
〃I'm so sorry;〃 I whispered。 
Billy nodded。 〃It's gonna be hard all around。〃 
〃Where's Charlie?〃 
〃Your dad is still at the hospital with Sue。 There are a lot of arrangements 
to be made。〃 
I swallowed hard。 
〃I'd better get back there;〃 Sam mumbled; and he ducked hastily out the door。 
Billy pulled his hand away from Jacob; and then he rolled himself through the 
kitchen toward his room。 
Jake stared after him for a minute; then came to sit on the floor beside me 
again。 He put his face in his 
hands。 I rubbed his shoulder; wishing I could think of anything to say。 
After a long moment; Jacob caught my hand and held it to his face。 
〃How are you feeling? Are you okay? I probably should have taken you to a 
doctor or something。〃 He 
sighed。 
〃Don't worry about me;〃 I croaked。 
He twisted his head to look at me。 His eyes were rimmed in red。 〃You don't 
look so good。〃 
〃I don't feel so good; either; I guess。〃 
〃I'll go get your truck and then take you home—you probably ought to be there 
when Charlie gets back。〃 
〃Right。〃 
I lay listlessly on the sofa while I waited for him。 Billy was silent in the 
other room。 I felt like a peeping 
torn; peering through the cracks at a private sorrow that wasn't mine。 
It didn't take Jake long。 The roar of my truck's engine broke the silence 
before I expected it。 He helped 
me up from the couch without speaking; keeping his arm around my shoulder when 
the cold air outside 
made me shiver。 He took the driver's seat without asking; and then pulled me 
next to his side to keep his 
arm tight around me。 I leaned my head against his chest。 
〃How will you get home?〃 I asked。 
〃I'm not going home。 We still haven't caught the bloodsucker; remember?〃 
My next shudder had nothing to do with cold。 
It was a quiet ride after that。 The cold air had woken me up。 My mind was 
alert; and it was working very 
hard and very fast。 
What if? What was the right thing to do? 
I couldn't imagine my life without Jacob now—I cringed away from the idea of 
even trying to imagine 
that。 Somehow; he'd bee essential to my survival。 But to leave things the 
way they were was that 
cruel; as Mike had accused? 
I remembered wishing that Jacob were my brother。 I realized now that all I 
really wanted was a claim on 
him。 It didn't feel brotherly when he held me like this。 It just felt nice—
warm and forting and familiar。 
Safe。 Jacob was a safe harbor
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