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I flinched； and spoke quickly。 〃That's all I needed。 Thank you。 For wanting to keep me。 I feel exactly the
same way about all of you； too。〃 My voice was jagged with emotion by the end。
Esme was at my side in a flash； her cold arms around me。
〃Dearest Bella；〃 she breathed。
I hugged her back。 Out of the corner of my eye； I noticed Rosalie looking down at the table； and I
realized that my words could be construed in two ways。
〃Well； Alice；〃 I said when Esme released me。 〃Where do you want to do this？〃
Alice stared at me； her eyes widening with terror。
〃No！ No！ NO！〃 Edward roared； charging back into the room。 He was in my face before I had time to
blink； bending over me； his expression twisted in rage。 〃Are you insane？〃 he shouted。 〃Have you utterly
lost your mind？〃
I cringed away； my hands over my ears。
〃Um； Bella；〃 Alice interjected in an anxious voice。 〃I don't think I'm ready for that。 I'll need to prepare…〃
〃You promised；〃 I reminded her； glaring under Edward's arm。
〃I know； but… Seriously； Bella！ I don't have any idea how to not killyou。〃
〃You can do it；〃 I encouraged。 〃I trust you。〃
Edward snarled in fury。
Alice shook her head quickly； looking panicked。
〃Carlisle？〃 I turned to look at him。
Edward grabbed my face in his hand； forcing me to look at him。 His other hand was out； palm toward
Carlisle。
Carlisle ignored that。 〃I'm able to do it；〃 he answered my question。 I wished I could see his expression。
〃You would be in no danger of me losing control。〃
〃Sounds good。〃 I hoped he could understand； it was hard to talk clearly the way Edward held my jaw。
〃Hold on；〃 Edward said between his teeth。 〃It doesn't have to be now。〃
〃There's no reason for it not to be now；〃 I said； the words ing out distorted。
〃I can think of a few。〃
〃Of course you can；〃 I said sourly。 〃Now let go of me。〃
He freed my face； and folded his arms across his chest。 〃In about two hours； Charlie will be here looking
for you。 I wouldn't put it past him to involve the police。〃
〃All three of them。〃 But I frowned。
This was always the hardest part。 Charlie； Renee。 Now Jacob； too。 The people I would lose； the people
I would hurt。 I wished there was some way that I could be the only one to suffer； but I knew that was
impossible。
At the same time； I was hurting them more by staying human。 Putting Charlie in constant danger through
my proximity。 Putting Jake in worse danger still by drawing his enemies across the land he felt bound to
protect。 And Renee—I couldn't even risk a visit to see my own mother for fear of bringing my deadly
problems along with me！
I was a danger mag； I'd accepted that about myself。
Accepting this； I knew I needed to be able to take care of myself and protect the ones I loved； even if
that meant that I couldn't be with them。 I needed to be strong。
〃In the interest of remaining inconspicuous；〃 Edward said； still talking through his gritted teeth； but
looking at Carlisle now； 〃I suggest that we put this conversation off； at the very least until Bella finishes
high school； and moves out of Charlie's house。〃
〃That's a reasonable request； Bella；〃 Carlisle pointed out。
I thought about Charlie's reaction when he woke up this morning； if—after all that life had put him through
in the last week with Harry's loss； and then I had put him through with my unexplained
disappearance—he were to find my bed empty。 Charlie deserved better than that。 It was just a little more
time； graduation wasn't so far away…
I pursed my lips。 〃I'll consider it。〃
Edward relaxed。 His jaw unclenched。
〃I should probably take you home；〃 he said； more calm now； but clearly in a hurry to get me out of here。
〃Just in case Charlie wakes up early。〃
I looked at Carlisle。 〃After graduation？〃
〃You have my word。〃
I took a deep breath； smiled； and turned back to Edward。 〃Okay。 You can take me home。〃
Edward rushed me out of the house before Carlisle could promise me anything else。 He took me out the
back； so I didn't get to see what was broken in the living room。
It was a quiet trip home。 I was feeling triumphant； and a little smug。 Scared stiff； too； of course； but I tried
not to think about that part。 It did me no good to worry about the pain—the physical or the
emotional—so I wouldn't。 Not until I absolutely had to。
When we got to my house； Edward didn't pause。 He dashed up the wall and through my window in half a
second。 Then he pulled my arms frcm around his neck and set me on the bed。
I thought I had a pretty good idea of what he was thinking； but his expression surprised me。 Instead of
furious； it was calculating。 He paced silently back and forth across my dark room while I watched with
growing suspicion。
〃Whatever you're planning； it's not going to work；〃 I told him。
〃Shh。 I'm thinking。〃
〃Ugh；〃 I groaned； throwing myself back on the bed and pulling the quilt over my head。
There was no sound； but suddenly he was there。 He flipped the cover back so he could see me。 He was
lying next to me。 His hand reached up to brush my hair from my cheek。
〃If you don't mind； I'd much rather you didn't hide your face。 I've lived without it for as long as I can
stand。 Now… tell me something。〃
〃What？〃 I asked； unwilling。
〃If you could have anything in the world； anything at all； what would it be？〃
I could feel the skepticism in my eyes。 〃You。〃
He shook his head impatiently。 〃Something you don't already have。〃
I wasn't sure where he was trying to lead me； so I thought carefully before I answered。 I came up with
something that was both true； and also probably impossible。
〃I would want… Carlisle not to have to do it。 I would want you to change me。〃
I watched his reaction warily； expecting more of the fury I'd seen at his house。 I was surprised that his
expression didn't change。 It was still calculating； thoughtful。
〃What would you be willing to trade for that？〃
I couldn't believe my ears。 I gawked at his posed face and blurted out the answer before I could
think about it。
〃Anything。〃
He smiled faintly； and then pursed his lips。 〃Five years？〃
My face twisted into an expression somewhere between chagrin and horror。
〃You said anything；〃 he reminded me。
〃Yes； but… you'll use the time to find a way out of it。 I have to strike while the iron is hot。 Besides； it's
just too dangerous to be human—for me； at least。 So； anything but that。〃
He frowned。 〃Three years？〃
〃No！〃
〃Isn't it worth anyrhing to you at all？ 〃
I thought about how much I wanted this。 Better to keep a poker face； I decided； and not let him know
how very much that was。 It would give me more leverage。 〃Six months？〃
He rolled his eyes。 〃Not good enough。〃
〃One year； then；〃 I said。 〃That's my limit。〃
〃At least give me two。〃
〃No way。 Nieen I'll do。 But I'm not going anywhere near twenty。 If you're staying in your teens
forever； then so am I。〃
He thought for a minute。 〃All right。 Forget time limits。 If you want me to be the one—then you'll just have
to meet one condition。〃
〃Condition？〃 My voice went flat。 〃What condition？〃
His eyes were cautious—he spoke slowly。 〃Marry me first。〃
I stared at him； waiting… 〃Okay。 What's the punch line？〃
He sighed。 〃You're wounding my ego； Bella。 I just proposed to you； and you think it's a joke。〃
〃Edward； please be serious。〃
〃I am one hundred percent serious。〃 He gazed at me with no hint of humor in his face。
〃Oh； c'mon；〃 I said； an edge of hysteria in my voice。 〃I'm only eighteen。〃
〃Well； I'm nearly a hundred and ten。 It's time I settled down。〃
I looked away； out the dark window； trying to control the panic before it gave me away。
〃Look； marriage isn't exactly that high on my list of priorities； you know？ It was sort of the kiss of death
for Renee and Charlie。〃
〃Interesting choice of words。〃
〃You know what I mean。〃
He inhaled deeply。 〃Please don't tell me that you're afraid of the mitment；〃 his voice was disbelieving；
and I understood what he meant。
〃That's not it exactly；〃 I hedged。 〃I'm… afraid of Renee。 She has s