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4 breaking dawn破晓-第17部分

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〃Edward;〃 I said; a strange little catch in my throat; 〃what is it? What's wrong?〃 

〃You have to ask?〃 His voice was hard; cynical。 

My first instinct; the product of a lifetime of insecurities; was to wonder what I had done wrong。 I 
thought through everything that had happened; but I couldn't find any sour note in the memory。 It had all 
been simpler than I'd expected; we'd fit together like corresponding pieces; made to match up。 This had 
given me a secret satisfaction—we were patible physically; as well as all the other ways。 Fire and 
ice; somehow existing together without destroying each other。 More proof that I belonged with him。 

I couldn't think of any part that would make him look like this—so severe and cold。 What had I missed? 

His finger smoothed the worried lines on my forehead。 

〃What are you thinking?〃 he whispered。 

〃You're upset。 I don't understand。 Did I。。。 ?〃 I couldn't finish。 

His eyes tightened。 〃How badly are you hurt; Bella? The truth—don't try to downplay it。〃 

〃Hurt?〃 I repeated; my voice came out higher than usual because the word took me so by surprise。 

He raised one eyebrow; his lips a tight line。 

I made a quick assessment; stretching my body automatically; tensing and flexing my muscles。 There was 
stiffness; and a lot of soreness; too; it was true; but mostly there was the odd sensation that my bones all 
had bee unhinged at the joints; and I had changed halfway into the consistency of a jellyfish。 It was 
not an unpleasant feeling。 

And then I was a little angry; because he was darkening this most perfect of all mornings with his 
pessimistic assumptions。 

〃Why would you jump to that conclusion? I've never been better than I am now。〃 

His eyes closed。 〃Stop that。〃 




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〃Stop what?〃 

〃Stop acting like I'm not a monster for having agreed to this。〃 

〃Edward!'7I whispered; really upset now。 He was pulling my bright memory through the darkness; 
staining it。 〃Don't ever say that。〃 

He didn't open his eyes; it was like he didn't want to see me。 

〃Look at yourself; Bella。 Then tell me I'm not a monster。〃 

Wounded; shocked; I followed his instruction unthinkingly and then gasped。 

What had happened to me? I couldn't make sense of the fluffy white snow that clung to my skin。 I shook 
my head; and a cascade of white drifted out of my hair。 

I pinched one soft white bit between my fingers。 It was a piece of down。 

〃Why am I covered in feathers?〃 I asked; confused。 

He exhaled impatiently。 〃I bit a pillow。 Or two。 That's not what I'm talking about。〃 

〃You。。。 bit a pillow? Why?〃 

〃Look; Bella!〃 he almost growled。 He took my hand—very gingerly—and stretched my arm out。 〃Look 
at that〃 

This time; I saw what he meant。 

Under the dusting of feathers; large purplish bruises were beginning to blossom across the pale skin of 
my arm。 My eyes followed the trail they made up to my shoulder; and then down across my ribs。 I pulled 
my hand free to poke at a discoloration on my left forearm; watching it fade where I touched and then 
reappear。 It throbbed a little。 

So lightly that he was barely touching me; Edward placed his hand against the bruises on my arm; one at 
a time; matching his long fingers to the patterns。 

〃Oh;〃 I said。 

I tried to remember this—to remember pain—but I couldn't。 I couldn't recall a moment when his hold 
had been too tight; his hands too hard against me。 I only remembered wanting him to hold me tighter; and 
being pleased when he did。。。。 

〃I'm。。。 so sorry; Bella;〃 he whispered while I stared at the bruises。 〃I knew better than this。 I should not 
have—〃 He made a low; revolted sound in the back of his throat。 〃I am more sorry than I can tell you。〃 

He threw his arm over his face and became perfectly still。 

I sat for one long moment in total astonishment; trying to e to terms—now that I understood it—with 
his misery。 It was so contrary to the way that I felt that it was difficult to process。 




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Theshock wore off slowly; leaving nothing in its absence。 Emptiness。 My mind was blank。 I couldn't 
think of what to say。 How could I explain it to him in the right way? How could I make him as happy as I 
was—or as I had been; a moment ago? 

I touched his arm; and he didn't respond。 I wrapped my fingers around his wrist and tried to pry his arm 
off his face; but I could have been yanking on a sculpture for all the good it did me。 

〃Edward。〃 

He didn't move。 

〃Edward?〃 

Nothing。 So; this would be a monologue; then。 

〃I'mnot sorry; Edward。 I'm。。。 I can't even tell you。 I'm so happy。 That doesn't cover it。 Don't be angry。 
Don't。 I'm really f—〃 

〃Do not say the word fine。〃 His voice was ice cold。 〃If you value my sanity; do not say that you are fine。〃 

〃But I am: I whispered。 

〃Bella;〃 he almost moaned。 〃Don't。〃 

〃No。 You don't; Edward。〃 

He moved his arm; his gold eyes watched me warily。 

〃Don't ruin this;〃 I told him。 〃I。 Am。 Happy。〃 

〃I've already ruined this;〃 he whispered。 

〃Cut it out;〃 I snapped。 

I heard his teeth grind together。 

〃Ugh!〃 I groaned。 〃Why can't you just read my mind already? It's so inconvenient to be a mental mute!〃 

His eyes widened a little bit; distracted in spite of himself。 

〃That's a new one。 You love that I can't read your mind。〃 

〃Not today。〃 

He stared at me。 〃Why?〃 

I threw my hands up in frustration; feeling an ache in my shoulder that I ignored。 My palms fell back 
against his chest with a sharp smack。 〃Because all this angst would be pletely unnecessary if you 
could see how I feel right now! Or five minutes ago; anyway。 I was perfectly happy。 Totally and 
pletely blissed out。 Now—well; I'm sort of pissed; actually。〃 




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〃You should be angry at me。〃 

〃Well; I am。 Does that make you feel better?〃 

He sighed。 〃No。 I don't think anything could make me feel better now。〃 

〃T?af;〃 I snapped。 〃That right there is why I'm angry。 You are killing my buzz; Edward。〃 

He rolled his eyes and shook his head。 

I took a deep breath。 I was feeling more of the soreness now; but it wasn't that bad。 Sort of like the day 
after lifting weights。 I'd done that with Renee during one of her fitness obsessions。 Sixtyfive lunges with 
ten pounds in each hand。 I couldn't walk the next day。 This was not as painful as that had been by half。 

I swallowed my irritation and tried to make my voice soothing。 〃We knew this was going to be tricky。 I 
thought that was assumed。 And then—well; it was a lot easier than I thought it would be。 And this is 
really nothing。〃 I brushed my fingers along my arm。 〃I think for a first time; not knowing what to expect; 
we did amazing。 With a little practice—〃 

His expression was suddenly so livid that I broke off midsentence。 

〃Assumed? Did you expect this; Bella? Were you anticipating that I would hurt you? Were you thinking 
it would be worse? Do you consider the experiment a success because you can walk away from it? No 
broken bones—that 

equals a victory?〃 

I waited; letting him get it all out。 Then I waited some more while his breathing went back to normal。 
When his eyes were calm; I answered; speaking with slow precision。 

〃I didn't know what to expect—but I definitely did not expect how。。。 how。。。 just wonderful and perfect it 
was。〃 My voice dropped to a whisper; my eyes slipped from his face down to my hands。 〃I mean; I don't 
know how it was for you; but it was like that for me。〃 

A cool finger pulled my chin back up。 

〃Is that what you're worried about?〃 he said through his teeth。 〃That I didn't enjoy myself?〃 

My eyes stayed down。 〃I know it's not the same。 You're not human。 I just was trying to explain that; for 
a human; well; I can't imagine that life gets any better than that。〃 

He was quiet for so long that; finally; I had to look up。 His face was softer now; thoughtful。 

〃It seems that I have more to apologi
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