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walk away。 Now。
“He’ll probably just kill her anyway；” Leah said。 Sneering。 “All the stories say that happens more often
than not。 Maybe a funeral will be better closure than a wedding。 Ha。”
This time I had to work。 I closed my eyes and fought the hot taste in my mouth。 I pushed and shoved
against the slide of fire down my back； wrestling to keep my shape together while my body tried to shake
apart。
When I was in control again； I glowered at her。 She was watching my hands as the tremors slowed。
Smiling。
Some joke。
“If you’re upset about gender confusion； Leah 。 。 。 ；” I said。 Slow； emphasizing each word。 “How do you
think the rest of us like looking at Sam through your eyes？ It’s bad enough that Emily has to deal with your
fixation。 She doesn’t need us guys panting after him； too。”
Pissed as I was； I still felt guilty when I watched the spasm of pain shoot across her face。
She scrambled to her feet — pausing only to spit in my direction — and ran for the trees； vibrating like a
tuning fork。
I laughed darkly。 “You missed。”
Sam was going to give me hell for that； but it was worth it。 Leah wouldn’t bug me anymore。 And I’d do it
again if I had the chance。
Because her words were still there； scratching themselves into my brain； the pain of it so strong that I
could hardly breathe。
It didn’t matter so much that Bella’d chosen someone else over me。 That agony was nothing at all。 That
agony I could live with for the rest of my stupid； too long； stretchedout life。
But it did matter that she was giving up everything — that she was letting her heart stop and her skin ice
over and her mind twist into some crystallized predator’s head。 A monster。 A stranger。
I would have thought there was nothing worse than that； nothing more painful in the whole world。
But； if he killed her 。 。 。
Again； I had to fight the rage。 Maybe； if not for Leah； it would be good to let the heat change me into a
creature who could deal with it better。 A creature with instincts so much stronger than human emotions。 An
animal who couldn’t feel pain in the same way。 A different pain。 Some variety； at least。 But Leah was running
now； and I didn’t want to share her thoughts。 I cussed her under my breath for taking away that escape； too。
My hands were shaking in spite of me。 What shook them？ Anger？ Agony？ I wasn’t sure what I was
fightingnow。
I had to believe that Bella would survive。 But that required trust — a trust I didn’t want to feel； a trust in
that bloodsucker’s ability to keep her alive。
She would be different； and I wondered how that would affect me。 Would it be the same as if she had
died； to see her standing there like a stone？ Like ice？ When her scent burned in my nostrils and triggered the
instinct to rip； to tear 。 。 。 How would that be？ Could I want to kill her？ Could I not want to kill one of them？
I watched the swells roll toward the beach。 They disappeared from sight under the edge of the cliff； but I
heard them beat against the sand。 I watched them until it was late； long after dark。
Going home was probably a bad idea。 But I was hungry； and I couldn’t think of another plan。
I made a face as I pulled my arm through the retarded sling and grabbed my crutches。 If only Charlie
hadn’t seen me that day and spread the word of my “motorcycle accident。” Stupid props。 I hated them。
Going hungry started to look better when I walked in the house and got a look at my dad’s face。 He had
something on his mind。 It was easy to tell — he always overdid it。 Acted all casual。
He also talked too much。 He was rambling about his day before I could get to the table。 He never
jabbered like this unless there was something that he didn’t want to say。 I ignored him as best I could；
concentrating on the food。 The faster I choked it down 。 。 。
“。 。 。 and Sue stopped by today。” My dad’s voice was loud。 Hard to ignore。 As always。 “Amazing
woman。 She’s tougher than grizzlies； that one。 I don’t know how she deals with that daughter of hers； though。
Now Sue； she would have made one hell of a wolf。 Leah’s more of a wolverine。” He chuckled at his own
joke。
He waited briefly for my response； but didn’t seem to see my blank； boredoutofmymind expression。
Most days that bugged him。 I wished he would shut up about Leah。 I was trying not to think about her。
“Seth’s a lot easier。 Of course； you were easier than your sisters； too； until 。 。 。 well； you have more to
deal with than they did。”
I sighed； long and deep； and stared out the window。
Billy was quiet for a second too long。 “We got a letter today。”
I could tell that this was the subject he’d been avoiding。
“A letter？”
“A 。 。 。 wedding invitation。”
Every muscle in my body locked into place。 A feather of heat seemed to brush down my back。 I held onto
the table to keep my hands steady。
Billy went on like he hadn’t noticed。 “There’s a note inside that’s addressed to you。 I didn’t read it。”
He pulled a thick ivory envelope from where it was wedged between his leg and the side of his wheelchair。
He laid it on the table between us。
“You probably don’t need to read it。 Doesn’t really matter what it says。”
Stupid reverse psychology。 I yanked the envelope off the table。
It was some heavy； stiff paper。 Expensive。 Too fancy for Forks。 The card inside was the same； too done
up and formal。 Bella’d had nothing to do with this。 There was no sign of her personal taste in the layers of see
through； petalprinted pages。 I’d bet she didn’t like it at all。 I didn’t read the words； not even to see the date。 I
didn’t care。
There was a piece of the thick ivory paper folded inhalf with my name handwritten in black ink on the
back。 I didn’t recognize the handwriting； but it was as fancy as the rest of it。 For half a second； I wondered if
the bloodsucker was into gloating。
I flipped it open。
Jacob；
I’m breaking the rules by sending you this。 She was afraid of hurting you； and she didn’t want to
make you feel obligated in any way。 But I know that； if things had gone the other way； I would have
wanted the choice。
I promise I will take care of her； Jacob。 Thank you — for her — for everything。
Edward
“Jake； we only have the one table；” Billy said。 He was staring at my left hand。
My fingers were clamped down on the wood hard enough that it really was in danger。 I loosened them
one by one； concentrating on that action alone； and then clenched my hands together so I couldn’t break
anything。
“Yeah； doesn’t matter anyway；” Billy muttered。
I got up from the table； shrugging out of my tshirt as I stood。 Hopefully Leah had gone home by now。
“Not too late；” Billy mumbled as I punched the front door out of my way。
I was running before I hit the trees； my clothes strewn out behind me like a trail of crumbs — as if I
wanted to find my way back。 It was almost too easy now to phase。 I didn’t have to think。 My body already
knew where I was going and； before I asked it to； it gave me what I wanted。
I had four legs now； and I was flying。
The trees blurred into a sea of black flowing around me。 My muscles bunched and released in an effortless
rhythm。 I could run like this for days and I would not be tired。 Maybe； this time； I wouldn’t stop。
But I wasn’t alone。
So sorry； Embry whispered in my head。
I could see through his eyes。 He was far away； to the north； but he had wheeled around and was racing to
join me。 I growled and pushed myself faster。
Wait for us； Quil plained。 He was closer； just starting out from the village。
Leave me alone； I snarled。
I could feel their worry in my head； try hard as I might to drown it in the sound of the wind and the forest。
This was what I hated most — seeing myself through their eyes； worse now that their eyes were full of pity。
They saw the hate； but they kept running after me。
A new voice sounded in my head。
Let him go。 Sam’s thought was soft； but still an order。 Embry and Quil slowed to a walk。
If only I could stop hearing； stop seeing what they saw。 My head was so crowded； but the only way to be
alone again was to be human； and I couldn’t s