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I already had my story memorized and corroborated。 “I don’t care。 I want to be there when Jacob wakes
up。”
“You need to think of Charlie now。 You’ve had a long day — sorry； I know that doesn’t begin to cover it
— but that doesn’t mean that you can shirk your responsibilities。” Her voice was serious； almost chiding。 “It’s
more important now than ever that Charlie stays safely in the dark。 Play your role first； Bella； and then you can
do what you want second。 Part of being a Cullen is being meticulously responsible。”
Of course she was right。 And if not for this same reason — a reason that was more powerful than all my
fear and pain and guilt — Carlisle would never have been able to talk me into leaving Jacob’s side；
unconscious or not。
“Go home；” Alice ordered。 “Talk to Charlie。 Flesh out your alibi。 Keep him safe。”
I stood； and the blood flowed down to my feet； stinging like the pricks of a thousand needles。 I’d been
sitting still for a long time。
“That dress is adorable on you；” Alice cooed。
“Huh？ Oh。 Er — thanks again for the clothes；” I mumbled out of courtesy rather than real gratitude。
“You need the evidence；” Alice said； her eyes innocent and wide。 “What’s a shopping trip without a new
outfit？ It’s very flattering； if I do say so myself。”
I blinked； unable to remember what she’d dressed me in。 I couldn’t keep my thoughts from skittering
away every few seconds； insects running from the light。 。 。 。
“Jacob is fine； Bella；” Alice said； easily interpreting my preoccupation。 “There’s no hurry。 If you realized
how much extra morphine Carlisle had to give him — what with his temperature burning it off so quickly —
you would know that he’s going to be out for a while。”
At least he wasn’t in any pain。 Not yet。
“Is there anything you want to talk about before you leave？” Alice asked sympathetically。 “You must be
more than a little traumatized。”
I knew what she was curious about。 But I had other questions。
“Will I be like that？” I asked her； my voice subdued。 “Like that girl Bree in the meadow？”
There were many things I needed to think of； but I couldn’t seem to get her out of my head； the newborn
whose other life was now — abruptly — over。 Her face； twisted with desire for my blood； lingered behind my
eyelids。
Alice stroked my arm。 “Everyone is different。 But something like that； yes。”
I was very still； trying to imagine。
“It passes；” she promised。
“How soon？”
She shrugged。 “A few years； maybe less。 It might be different for you。 I’ve never seen anyone go through
this who’s chosen it beforehand。 It should be interesting to see how that affects you。”
“Interesting；” I repeated。
“We’ll keep you out of trouble。”
“I know that。 I trust you。” My voice was monotone； dead。
Alice’s forehead puckered。 “If you’re worried about Carlisle and Edward； I’m sure they’ll be fine。 I
believe Sam is beginning to trust us 。 。 。 well； to trust Carlisle； at least。 It’s a good thing； too。 I imagine the
atmosphere got a little tense when Carlisle had to rebreak the fractures —”
“Please； Alice。”
“Sorry。”
I took a deep breath to steady myself。 Jacob had begun healing too quickly； and some of his bones had
set wrong。 He’d been out cold for the process； but it was still hard to think about。
“Alice； can I ask you a question？ About the future？”
She was suddenly wary。 “You know I don’t see everything。”
“It’s not that； exactly。 But you do see my future； sometimes。 Why is that； do you think； when nothing else
works on me？ Not what Jane can do； or Edward or Aro 。 。 。” My sentence trailed off with my interest level。
My curiosity on this point was fleeting； heavily overshadowed by more pressing emotions。
Alice； however； found the question very interesting。 “Jasper； too； Bella — his talent works on your body
just as well as it does on anyone else’s。 That’s the difference； do you see it？ Jasper’s abilities affect the body
physically。 He really does calm your system down； or excite it。 It’s not an illusion。 And I see visions of
outes； not the reasons and thoughts behind the decisions that create them。 It’s outside the mind； not an
illusion； either； reality； or at least one version of it。 But Jane and Edward and Aro and Demetri — they work
inside the mind。 Jane only creates an illusion of pain。 She doesn’t really hurt your body； you only think you feel
it。 You see； Bella？ You are safe inside your mind。 No one can reach you there。 It’s no wonder that Aro was
so curious about your future abilities。”
She watched my face to see if I was following her logic。 In truth； her words had all started to run together；
the syllables and sounds losing their meaning。 I couldn’t concentrate on them。 Still； I nodded。 Trying to look
like I got it。
She wasn’t fooled。 She stroked my cheek and murmured； “He’s going to be okay； Bella。 I don’t need a
vision to know that。 Are you ready to go？”
“One more thing。 Can I ask you another question about the future？ I don’t want specifics； just an
overview。”
“I’ll do my best；” she said； doubtful again。
“Can you still see me being a vampire？”
“Oh； that’s easy。 Sure； I do。”
I nodded slowly。
She examined my face； her eyes unfathomable。 “Don’t you know your own mind； Bella？”
“I do。 I just wanted to be sure。”
“I’m only as sure as you are； Bella。 You know that。 If you were to change your mind； what I see would
change 。 。 。 or disappear； in your case。”
I sighed。 “That isn’t going to happen； though。”
She put her arms around me。 “I’m sorry。 I can’t really empathize。 My first memory is of seeing Jasper’s
face in my future； I always knew that he was where my life was headed。 But I can sympathize。 I’m so sorry
you have to choose between two good things。”
I shook off her arms。 “Don’t feel sorry for me。” There were people who deserved sympathy。 I wasn’t one
of them。 And there wasn’t any choice to make — there was just breaking a good heart to attend to now。 “I’ll
go deal with Charlie。”
I drove my truck home； where Charlie was waiting just as suspiciously as Alice had expected。
“Hey； Bella。 How was your shopping trip？” he greeted me when I walked into the kitchen。 He had his
arms folded over his chest； his eyes on my face。
“Long；” I said dully。 “We just got back。”
Charlie assessed my mood。 “I guess you already heard about Jake； then？”
“Yes。 The rest of the Cullens beat us home。 Esme told us where Carlisle and Edward were。”
“Are you okay？”
“Worried about Jake。 As soon as I make dinner； I’m going down to La Push。”
“I told you those motorcycles were dangerous。 I hope this makes you realize that I wasn’t kidding
around。”
I nodded as I started pulling things out of the fridge。 Charlie settled himself in at the table。 He seemed to
be in a more talkative mood than usual。
“I don’t think you need to worry about Jake too much。 Anyone who can cuss with that kind of energy is
going to recover。”
“Jake was awake when you saw him？” I asked； spinning to look at him。
“Oh； yeah； he was awake。 You should have heard him — actually； it’s better you didn’t。 I don’t think
there was anyone in La Push who couldn’t hear him。 I don’t know where he picked up that vocabulary； but I
hope he hasn’t been using that kind of language around you。”
“He had a pretty good excuse today。 How did he look？”
“Messed up。 His friends carried him in。 Good thing they’re big boys； ’cause that kid’s an armful。 Carlisle
said his right leg is broken； and his right arm。 Pretty much the whole right side of his body got crushed when he
wrecked that damn bike。” Charlie shook his head。 “If I ever hear of you riding again； Bella —”
“No problem there； Dad。 You won’t。 Do you really think Jake’s okay？”
“Sure； Bella； don’t worry。 He was himself enough to tease me。”
“Tease you？” I echoed in shock。
“Yeah — in between insulting somebody’s mother and taking the Lord’s name in vain； he said； ‘Bet
you’re glad she loves Cullen instead of me today； huh； Charlie？’”
I turned back to the fridge so that he couldn’